My title is my little tribute to Britney's new song, "Womanizer", which has been stuck in my head for about two weeks. Yes, I'm still a Britney fan. You can judge me if you want...I don't care. :)
So, I actually have a purpose to this blog post...other than the lyrics to crazy Britney's latest single, and it actually does have to do with being crazy! Most of you who know me well know that I have an extreme fear of flying in airplanes. Well, not only do I have a fear of flying, but I also have a fear of a plane crashing into my house or office. (Why I live/work on the Dulles Airport flight path is beyond me...) The planes being so low and loud really makes me extremely anxious and I'm guessing this fear developed post 9/11. The other one, the fear of flying, is my Mom's fault. (Hi, Mom!) :) She and I are exactly the same (well, almost) in this area! She started off flying in her early 20's and was "okay" with it, and then something happened and she became not okay with it. She hasn't flown anywhere for about 24 years...and probably won't for the rest of her life. I have flown about 5 times in my life - once to Cancun, once to Italy and some other places in the states (Ohio, Florida, Cali...), so I can fly...it's just the whole process that makes me sick...literally. I know what the problem is - it's the lack of control. I have no control whatsoever and to me, I'm putting my life in the pilot's hands. Everytime I get in an airplane, I'm convniced that I'm going to die. Morbid, I know, but that's the truth. Now, throw in 2 little kids to the mix. I had a bad enough time flying when I didn't have children to look after, but now that I could possibly leave them without a mother and/or father...well, it's terrifying!
The reason why I'm posting this, is because I need help, obviously..haha (and I'm guessing that venting, will help too). Scott and I are going to Mexico in 2 weeks and flying is on my mind just about every minute of the day. You're probably wondering why I don't try medication or therapy. And...Yes, I have a prescription for Xanax. Yes, I know that flying is MUCH safer than driving. Yes, I know that I can drink alcohol before and during the flight. Yes, I have tried visualization therapy. All of that still doesn't help me in the seconds leading up to the flight. I'm pathetic, I know...haha. So, if anyone has any suggestions, tips or advice - I'm all ears. I'll try anything!
Below is a picture of the resort that we'll be visiting. I keep daydreaming about it and I hope to not chicken out and actually make it there. :)
4 comments:
A quick google search revealed a plethora of cds and self-help books you can buy...people trying to make a buck off your misery :( but I did find this website with a free online course you can take! http://www.airlinetraveladvice.com/fear.shtml
Xanax is my answer for flying too...so I can get some rest :o)
You'll do fine! I'm jealous!
PS: Thanks, I have the womanizer chorus stuck in my head!
i am sorry about your fear, but I am totally jealous about your vacaton. you guys will have a BLAST! You will do fine in the plane, just look at pics of the kiddos!! :)
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